Here I am at the end of 2010 and again just So thankful I am here. So thankful for all God has done in my life. 2009 was the hardest year of my life and while 2010 was hard it was much better than 2009. God has given me so much. Great family, Friends and a new career to be excited about.
I have learned more in the last two years about God and myself than ever before in my life. I have a new apperication for God's Grace and what that really means. I have seen God take me from April 09 to here at the end of 2010 and make me into something I never dreamed I would be. :)
December of last year I flew up to Oklahoma to see one of my dearest friends. I was still so confused on life and what God was doing. While we were at a party, my friend and two of her students started singing a song around the paino. Up until that Point I had really struggled with the fact that if my ex husband could walk out on me and all the stuff I found out about him. Find out all that really he did to me, how could God possibly still love me too. I felt abandoned (which I was by man) But, God reminded me in that very moment during that song that he never did or would abandoned me. No matter what "people" thought happened in my marraige and no matter what really happened to me in our marriage God was always there. He LOVED ME.
I sat and cried as they sang that song. It lifted my sprits and to this day when I hear that song I cry. As the reminder that God loves me and is always making a way for the best for me. He will always turn evil into good and make things point to his glory.
Here is the song:
He is jealous for me,
Loves like a hurricane, I am a tree,
Bending beneath the weight of his wind and mercy.
When all of a sudden,
I am unaware of these afflictions eclipsed by glory,
And I realise just how beautiful You are,
And how great Your affections are for me.
And oh, how He loves us so,
Oh how He loves us,
How He loves us all
He loves us,
Oh how He loves us,
Oh how He loves us,
Oh how He loves.
Yeah, He loves us,
Oh how He loves us,
Oh how He loves us,
Oh how He loves.
We are His portion and He is our prize,
Drawn to redemption by the grace in His eyes,
If grace is an ocean, we’re all sinking.
So Heaven meets earth like an unforeseen kiss,
And my heart turns violently inside of my chest,
I don’t have time to maintain these regrets,
When I think about, the way…
He loves us,
Oh how He loves us,
Oh how He loves us,
Oh how He loves.
Yeah, He loves us,
Oh how He loves us,
Oh how He loves us,
Oh how He loves.
